For a Crumb of Attention

You hear me only when I’m bare, when I’m agreeable, when I’m fair. When I smile right, don’t raise my voice, when I forget I have a choice. You listen when I play it small, when I don’t question you at all. When I am pleasant, neat, polite, and never dare to start a fight. If I get loud, if I stand tall, if I have thoughts you didn’t call, if skirts grow longer, words grow sharp, you pull away, you leave a mark. You’d rather I wake up before you do, my hair in place, my silence too. No “no,” no pause, no wrong reply, just meet your wants and don’t ask why. You call me doll - your favorite name. A doll exists to play your game. You dress me up the way you please: deep-cut dress or stockings, tease. Put on a wig - long silver hair, you love me best when I look rare. You love my hunger, love my play, love how I laugh your jokes away. You love when I pretend I’m fine, swallowing words that cross the line. You love when I don’t turn my head to see the lies to others said. You like me sweet, you like me tame, a loyal pet without a claim. Warm at home, no needs, no weight, no voice that dares to complicate. But that is not the truth of me. You made me up so I’d agree. A perfect toy, a dream you drew, and I stepped in, what else to do? Use me. Break me. Take your fill. Then leave me quiet, empty, still. I’ll take the crumbs you sometimes throw, like love is all I need to know. I won’t ask more, who am I to beg? My wanting feels like too much weight. They say the good ones never lose, so I must be the one you choose to use. If I were worthy, love would stay. That’s what I tell myself each day. If I were whole, if I were clean, I’d have been held, not left between. So use me. Leave me. Let it end. I’ll bear it all, I will pretend. Just say I’m special, say it slow. Say I’m your life, your all, your glow. I’ll trust the words, I’ll make them true, Because believing is all I have of you.

Chain

TEZOS

Network

Tezos

Contract

KT1Gg99uzpheAopmpYZkRgSMdaEQfQTemd8w

Token ID

1